yea, well, been extremely sick for a while, not to mention wanna die quite often, dont misunderstand now, i wanna die but dun wanna really run offf n kill myself. las nite i sat there in tears i was in so much pain n i jus kept pukin all over..

 soo as for today ima go smoke up for the first time in a longggg time, i have completely givin up..

its only 2:15 n my day sucked already...i hate this house with a strong passion n want to go awayyyy..n i had plans but i currently don feel like goin out n getting drunk on a skewl nite so im gonna sit home as usual..

o yea..n cuz life is such a bitch as usual...i already puked 4 times...geez..some1 should jus shoot me n put me outta my misery

heh, im on like 4 diff. meds now, n i dun even kno the name of all of them

anywayyyy, skewl is ok, been kinda down cuz im sick from my meds, considering im on so many (crazy, no?)

wellllll, off to sleep